Self-Love Changes Everything
I woke up this morning in a panic remembering that it is my second anniversary with my partner. I started to think about when I would have time to pick up a card and what I will make for dinner and then I decided the best gift I could give is for me to write why I am so deeply in love and grateful to be with this human being.
My relationships have not been successful in the past and I spent several years on my own. Although it felt lonely at times, I knew that in order to heal from my failures, I needed the time to look at what I was missing inside of me. I had a heavy bag of rocks that I had been carrying for so long, I forgot that I was still holding on to it. This bag was filled with the rocks of:
you don’t deserve to be loved
you are never going to find what you want, so you better take what you can get
and
you will fail on your own
As I set the bag down and began to see all of the negative ways I felt about myself, I knew that I had to have some serious sessions with all of the voices in my head. I took the time to grieve each belief that had kept me stuck in what my mind thought was a safe place. One by one, I was able to liberate myself from the rocks that had been dragging me down and keeping me from finding truth in relationships.
I began to see myself differently and focused on loving myself, enjoying myself, and connecting with the totality of me. I found freedom in how I began to see the world and others in it and I didn’t feel alone anymore. I felt empowered, complete, and whole.
It was when my heart was filled with being in love with myself that I had created a true and honest space for my soulmate to step into my life. In my true essence, I could love more authentically, give more openly, and connect on a level that I had always dreamed of but had never achieved.
So, my dear soulmate, thank you for showing up so real, so passionate, and so open to what the world has to offer us all. Thank you for loving all the parts of my story and who I am. I am truly blessed by your friendship, your love, and your commitment to always being true to who you are.
Love,
Maggie
